Better Days

When I turned 40 in August, I thought this is no big Deal I'll be just fine.... Will I?
In August I had just shipped my oldest son Austin's horse to South Carolina to be sold. The morning of my 40th birthday I got the call that he had a major colic overnight and was found dead in his paddock. Never should have sent him, was my thought. But it was too late.
The year went on and in my horse world I found a horse that looked just like Busy and decided to buy him (maybe to make myself feel better) I bought him , He was perfect! Three days later he got caught in the fence and tore his back leg up terribly. I had to drive him 3 hours to the equine hospital for a week long hospital stay and a healthy vet bill. But things were going to look better now. I mean we are more than halfway through the year. What else could go wrong?
My Dad, the most kind,caring,gentle man I have ever known. The one that would drop everything and come when I called, the guy that always patted me on the back and called me his little girl. He died on May 14, 2011. I feel a void without him here. Turning 40 has had heartache and hardship for me. I pray for better days.